Châu Sa Isabella Dẫn Daniel Trần Aguiar

This place belongs to you. Whenever you find it, however old you are, every word here was written with you in mind, and with more love than I know how to measure.

Your history. Your family. Your father's voice, saved for the day you go looking.

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Jos with Châu Sa and Dẫn
Jos, Châu Sa & Dẫn

A letter · from your father

To Châu Sa and Dẫn,

This site is for you.

f you're reading this, you've found your way back to me - or someone has helped you find it. Either way, welcome.

My name is Josario Aguiar. Everyone calls me Jos. I'm your father. You knew me as Daddy when you were very small, and as Ba, which is Dad in Vietnamese.

Dẫn, you were born in Da Nang on 27 February 2021. Your nickname is Roo. Châu Sa, you were born in Da Nang on 6 November 2024. Your nickname is Meo. For the first part of your lives I was there every day. Then circumstances changed and I couldn't be. That's a conversation for when we're together in person, not for a website.

What I want you to know here is simpler.

I have loved you every single day. I have thought about you every single day. I have never stopped being your father, even when I couldn't reach you. Nothing anyone tells you changes that. Not time, not distance, not any story anyone else has told.

This site exists because I wanted you to have something real you could find. Videos of me talking to you. Stories about where you come from - the Aguiar family, Goa and Tanzania and Australia, your grandfather Felix who you never got to meet, your Vietnamese heritage which is beautiful and part of who you are. Letters I wrote you during the years I couldn't hold you.

I built this for you quietly, knowing you'd find it one day when you were ready.

When you do, I hope you'll reach out. I'll be where I said I'd be, still your father, still waiting.

With all my love,

Daddy

What you'll find here

  1. Letters Long-form, honest, for you when you are ready to read them.
  2. Things I want to teach you The things a father teaches when he's there every day.
  3. Videos My face. My voice. So you know I was always here.
  4. Family history Portugal. Goa. Tanzania. Australia. Vietnam. The Aguiar and Trần lines.
  5. Photographs The people who love you, and the places you come from.

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To Châu Sa & Dẫn

However you feel when you find this is okay

Anger at me. Anger at your mother. Anger at yourselves. Numbness. Confusion. All of it makes sense. You don't have to sort it out in one sitting, and you don't have to reach back at all.

To Châu Sa & Dẫn

This wasn't your fault

Plain words, so you don't carry this as a question. Whatever happened between the adults in your life was not about you. You did not cause it. There was nothing you could have done differently.

To Châu Sa & Dẫn

You owe me nothing

If you reach out, I want you to know what you're walking into. No explanation required. No timeline. No version of yourself you need to be. The door is open and there are no conditions.

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If you found this through a search, you may be looking for Châu Sa Trần Aguiar (also known as Isabella) or Dẫn Trần Aguiar (also known as Daniel). This site was made for them by their father. If you have a connection to them, please reach out.